When I step back from all the research and take the time to contemplate about the greater implications of what we are trying to do, I sometimes wonder whether we are being too selfish in asking to be taller than where we are naturally supposed to end up.
When I think about the type of person who would spent a lot of time on this website, they are probably already in their 20s or late teens. Their natural growth has stopped and they are dissatisfied with where they are currently in terms of size/height. So they go on the internet to search for a solution. Probably no one in their immediate circle of influence has any knowledge or information which can help them.
After searching around and rejecting the easy, much more obvious options like the crazy Grow Taller Pills they somehow find the forums and this website. Then they see that this website is being genuine and honest about the endeavor and they think that because of all the research me and the other researchers have done we would already have the solution. I can only say that there is nothing at least at this point I can give the other people.
Height Increase is something that is very radical in nature. It is not like weight loss. Weight loss is easy, much easier than what we are trying to do. There are probably millions of websites on the internet devoted to the idea of weight loss and maybe a good percentage of them have worthless advice and information and some of them are scams. However weight loss can be done, often in weeks for the individual to see results. This researcher to make a person taller is much harder.
At this point, after writing hundreds of articles I am starting to wonder whether it might be really impossible to achieve the goal of height increase after bone maturity without choosing the limb lengthening approach. Maybe there is no real way.
The search is extremely hard, and there have been a few serious breakthroughs but there has not been any clear routes on where to go. I have had to retract some claims I made earlier on in the research because I found evidence later on that showed that I was very wrong before. The best example is what happened when I re-analyzed the diagrams for the epiphysis of the long bones and realized that there is no layer of periosteum on the ends of the long bones, but it is instead comprised of just the layer of articular cartilage which somehow keeps its layer width constant, and I still can’t figure out the molecular mechanism which keeps it from from keeping the same cartilage layer width.
Something that I sort of still feel a lot of shame about is that I feel that I have to keep this website and this research a secret, hidden from the closest people in my life. I don’t think they would understand why I chose to create this website and why I spend so much time, energy, and effort in researching this topic so extensively. Most people would not use the label “short” on me but I still feel in the back of my mind lacking in this area. It doesn’t seem to be able to go away. The emotion is very raw and I feel anxiety over this issue, if someone brings it up in my real life in social situations. Maybe they might call me selfish for wanting to be even taller. Maybe they will call me crazy for spending my life and time on this endeavor instead of devoting more time towards another goal, like making more money so that I can eventually provide for a family. However, I know that at least at this point in my life, this is what I want to do.
So I do the research at a relentless rate, with persistence, in secret, without the people closest to me knowing about it, except you the readers.
I openly admit that this obsession is not healthy to have a fully fulfilled life but I feel like my life has meaning and purpose when I am researching an answer to this problem. It allows me to learn, make a contribution, grow, feel important and significant, while making new cool discoveries everyday. I look at this entire thing as a Hanayama Metal Puzzle that may (or may not) have a solution or maybe even one of the 6 remaining Millenium Prize Math Problems posed by the Clay Mathematics Institute that was posed at the turn of the millenium ago.
I know that millions, if not billions of people in the world right now could secretly be wishing that there is a solution. I know at least 5-6 people in my immediate life who would love to be able to use the solution if I did ever figure it out. Everyone seems to want this solution. So I wonder, are they being selfish? Am I being selfish?
Maybe I am being too selfish in asking more than what I already have. Are we as individuals asking too much from the world to be more than where we are now?
